Fifty: 4 days to go

Technology is a pain.

Do I say that as a senior nearing my half century. No!
As a rational human being about to lose her youth, the little she had left.

Turning fifty sans technical difficulties....

8 days left to cover my hopes, fears, dreams, insecurities and demons before F day.

Discovering the joys of blogging but also the frustration of unreliable technology. So please excuse everything that seems odd and blame the technology. Like we always do.

Who am I? Do I care? Does anyone else? Perhaps not but...
For the sake of posterity, one day this will be important. Really.

I am 49 and many months. I am married, second time around and have a wonderful beautiful son who has just turned 21. Distracted me a little from my own insignificant milestone. I have been a single parent for most of my son's life having split from my philandering first husband when my baby was 14 months old. My son still has a father who is around but otherwise occupied with 3 other children from his second marriage.
I am sometimes asked how it is that my ex-husband has 3 other kids and I only have the one . My response is that he had a head start. He actually did not wait till our marriage was over before starting a new relationship.

Silly me.

I was very lucky when my first marriage ended in having a great job with wonderful colleagues, having close friends to support me and a family who could not do enough to help me. I survived and I hope/know my son has too.

I still have a great job in a profession I love. I will never forget a comment made by a close friend who wondered how it was that someone in my profession would have marriage difficulties. I replied that it was the other parties' fault obviously as he was not in my profession. Like maybe it can happen to anyone.

In the end, it had to happen. The outcome was good and I learnt that I could be on my own for a while at least and care for my child on my own. It was a lesson I had to have and forced independence on me.
What does not kill you makes you stronger is something in which I truly believe. If it does kill you however, definitely not good.
Events that challenge you and your coping ability will always have a good outcome if you maintain a positive attitude, gather your resources/friends/family around you and keep going. Putting one foot in front of the other and then the other etc will keep moving you forward. Onward and upward- the only way to go.
Sounds easy.......???

Fifty shades of fabulous: if only

My plan had been to chronicle my last few months before reaching the Big '0', ie Half a Century, 10 years past life starting, if married this would mean golden anniversary. Do you get my drift? The name of the blog????

Anyway due to unforeseen circumstances ie life and technical difficulties, no blog has appeared nor been written. All my hopes dashed; future career plans now laughable; and escape from my current drudgery delayed if not forever destroyed.

I am pretty disappointed.

Fifty or die: literally

Fifty and fabulous!!
Sounds great doesn't it.  The fabulous part at least.
Truth is I am nearly fifty (insert swear words of your choosing) and not nearly fabulous enough.

So for the next 6months as I near/hurtle towards/crash into fifty, my quest is to strive towards fabulousness.  At least as fabulous as I am able. Without surgical intervention I might add.

Join me if you will on my journey celebrating the last nearly 50 years of my life and then head towards the start of the next 50 years....  The other side of fifty.

D (F)- Day is in March 2013.

Obviously I have no choice. Only one alternative to reaching 50. Not reaching 50 and we know what that means.
So onward and upwards to fifty and fabulous.  Nearly.

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